long story short, i was always tiny; i fluctuated between 110-115 with no effort and took it for granted that i never had to watch what i ate or consciously exercise. i began to steadily put on weight over the past few years and finally, on august 4th 2010, decided to weigh myself and see what my damage was. instead of the usual 115, i had hit 148 and knew that i’d continue to climb on the scale if i kept doing what i was doing. 

i made huge changes to my diet, upped my exercise, and created this blog. for a long time i was doing a great job, and got down to 120 pounds—only 5 lbs away from my ultimate goal weight. 

over the past month or two, though, i’ve fallen back into my old habits—which, yes, is disappointing—and decided to take a brief hiatus from blogging. dishing out advice felt hypocritical, and i knew that i wasn’t doing anything i was doing before. it didn’t feel right to keep updating and knowing that i wasn’t being a “good fitblr.” 

on january 1st, 2012, i will not only fully re-commit to going back to healthy eating, proper proportions, NOT drinking my calories, slowing down on the beer, not getting 2nds or 3rds or, jesus, even 4ths, and staying binge-free, but i will also commit myself to heavy and regular exercise. i will try new things. i will push myself. i will do try things that scare me, or things i never thought i would. i will work hard and sweat and maybe even cry, and i will keep you updated on every step of the way on my “2nd weight loss journey.”