random ass update about my teeth. i will not be offended if you do not read this novel

i know most people would love to have their gappy teeth fixed, but the time is nearing where veneers are going to become a real possibility and im actually more nervous about it than not—and not because of the procedure.

my teeth have been gapped since i was born. not the bottom row—they’re pretty much perfect in terms of spacing and size and all that. but the top row is another story. besides the obvious large gap in the middle, the others in the top row are evenly spaced out as well. so basically im just a gappy motherfucker.

but it’s been like that all my life and besides some insecurities about it when i was younger, like 10 or 11 or my early teens, the gap does not bug me. it doesn’t stop me from finding myself attractive, and it hasn’t stopped other people from liking it either, besides the idiots who use, “you have a gap in your teeth!” as an insult during an argument—but if you’re that unintelligent then you really don’t offend me, so that doesn’t count. plus, my parents have gaps in their teeth, and a part of me kind of likes that we all have this goofy little characteristic in common.

unfortunately the front two are chipped as shit and the enamel is worn down to the point that insurance will cover the cost of my veneers. every other dentist has tried to force braces and veneers on me for years, but i always said no; now, though, i have a dentist i trust and one who has never tried to get me to fill the gaps for any cosmetic reason. he did tell me, though, that the time would come when the veneers would be necessary, and as my teeth are starting to chip more and more, i see that that time is going to be soon.

im not worried about the process [although i hateeeeeeeeeeee getting stuff done at the dentist, i loathe it] but about not having the gap anymore! it’s a huge part of my face and just my features in general. its something everyone notices and something that really stands out about me. and i hate to sound like a cliche but it kinda does give me character. so it’ll be weird to not have it anymore!

as a friend put it awhile ago, when this topic came up, “theres no way it can look bad!” which is true and a plus. im not going to wake up and be like fuuuuck i wish i didn’t have straight teeth! it’s just weird to know that something that is so obviously a big part of me will be gone sometime soon.

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  1. justfivemore said: you remind me of Danielle on ANTM ahaha. good luck, you’ll look fab!
  2. morethanwordsss said: Good luck! It sounds like a struggle. I hate anything done with my teeth as well. But it sounds like the best option. I’m kinda jealous you get to have whatever smile you want :)
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