why do i always procrastinate before a run?

so i ended up running closer to 10pm than 9pm like i previously posted. i just really didnt want to get up and do it but i knew i had to since this is week one of my mon/weds/fri running plan and thatd just be a FAIL if i didnt go.

seriously, within the first 10 steps i’m loving it. this time i forced myself to sprint up the hills when i reached them instead of walking or lightly jogging up them as i sometimes do. it burned, but it felt good. i also ran more of the course than i ever have before, so that’s a win.

the best part? before i left the house, i told my parents that if i wasnt back by a certain time to send out a search party for me, since its dark out and thats kind of creepy…

…and when i got back to the house, i saw my dad waiting outside on the curb waiting for me to make sure i was ok out there alone.

that’s nice in any circumstance, i know. but my dad and i have had a really shitty, rocky relationship and i’m really resentful about the fact that i feel like he either A) seriously doesn’t give a shit about me or B) does a really awesome job of ACTING like he doesnt. so when he does shit like that, it’s really touching to me.