Hello, lovers!

Whenever I post about me “falling off the wagon” or “messing up” when it comes to eating habits, I always think, this is it. People are finally going to be sick of this and stop reading this blog. And every single time, you guys surprise me by providing me with support, kind words, and endless amounts of love. I don’t even know WHY I’m surprised at all, at this point! So thank you, lovers, for being so good to me as always and keeping me motivated <3 

I will say this, though—I will never stop trying. I will never quit. I will never be so discouraged that I just STOP. 

It does not matter how slow you go, so long as you do not stop, right? 

=] 

My mom and I always joke about how I’ve got a great rejection bounce-back rate, and even though that’s kinda sorta embarrassing, I’m also proud of it.

Get rejected by a job? Apply for another. Get rejected by a guy? There’ll be another who appreciates you more. Mess up with weight loss? Start a clean slate with your eating during the next meal, or the next morning. Get pooped on by life? Make tomorrow better. 

So you know, I did eat clean yesterday, took all my vitamins, and drank lots of water. I got some healthy snacks to stick in the car again in case I get cravings; I find that that helps me a lot. I also raided my parents’ fridge—no, they cannot get rid of me—this morning for fruit, thanks guys! 

Summer, and my friend’s wedding, are right around the corner now! It truly is crunch time, to make sure I am as happy and as healthy as possible for these events. 

<3 

Today was nice. I went to lunch with Laura and World’s Cutest Baby (please see: on the right), then met up with OTHER Laura (the one I write about every effing day) and our friend Roxanne to go to a peony farm! The garden was beautiful but it was a bad surprise to find out that you can’t take any flowers home yet. I wanted to surprise my mom with a few (AWW, I know, right?! CUTIE) but alas it will have to wait.

Back to work tomorrow! Hopefully my back doesn’t pull any fast ones and bust out with the hardcore pain again. I’m currently curled up in bed with my friends vicodin and Icy Hot patch, so I’m hoping that helps!

Exciting shit

  • Tomorrow I will officially be signed up as a Beachbody coach—so yes, I will have my own team and yes I would love to have YOU on it if you’re interested in joining me =] More details tomorrow though after I’m all done signing up!
  • I got my T25 “NAILED IT” shirt today!! I was SO happy to see the package sitting on my porch before I left for work! I was like YAAAASSSSSSS….seriously, out loud, because the neighbors don’t already think I’m weird enough
  • James’ mama and sister brought over some meds and a heating pack for me to help with my back, and I’m going to see the doctor tomorrow, so I will definitely be updating about that. Thanks again to everyone for all the support! You guys are so awesome! I really appreciate all of the messages and comments, it’s so amazing to see how much people band together on this site when you need something. 

Raise your hand if you feel like poo

*Hand raise*

I woke up with an upset stomach and a headache, so no workout for me this morning; if I’m feeling better tonight I will bust one out, but for now I’m trying to be smart and listen to what my body is telling me. 

And what it was saying was….”Don’t get out of bed.”

I am going to work, though; I love my boss and don’t want to inconvenience her by calling out last minute, PLUS I’m forever a broke ho and need the money. Can’t wait till I’m a rich ho instead! Wait, what?

My dad did T25 with me yesterday, and he took it more seriously this time, which made me happy. 

This weekend I will actually be sitting down to put together a plan of attack to change some things in my life, because I don’t like how certain things are going and I can’t stand whining about things but not changing them. Don’t like it when others do it, definitely hate it when I do it myself. So I’ll be working on that.

Tonight is a friend’s birthday celebration, so it’ll be nice to hang out and get some friend time in; hopefully my stomach is feeling better by that time!

Just throwing it out there!

I’ve told a BUNCH of you this, but if any of you are doing T25 [or any workout program or just…uh…anything, I guess] seriously feel free to message me if you feel down or discouraged or just plain not in the mood to get your workout in. 

I’ve had a lot of you message me about not having the motivation to do it and trust me, I. HAVE. BEEN. THERE. But I’m finally at a point in my life where not only is the motivation and dedication running high, but it just is now a part of my daily routine. I don’t think twice now; there is no, “Am I going to work out today?” 

The answer is always YES. 

I’m past making excuses and falling off the wagon. I’m steady and stable now. So if you need someone to push you towards that, or just need a, “hey, you can get through that 25 minutes, you’ll be glad you did!” please just write me a message =] 

Things are very busy lately. In the past week, I’ve slept at the aquarium, gone to the beach, visited the Cal Academy of Sciences, and will be bungee jumping tomorrow, on top of working full-time and getting in my workouts every day. 

The pictures above are from last night, when we celebrated Laura’s birthday in San Francisco. The t-rex was the first thing we saw, so I was immediately excited; I love me some dinosaurs. My friend Melissa is on the left! I’d never been to the Academy of Sciences before but I was in love with it! Such a cool place! If you live in the Bay Area and haven’t been, go check that shit out. 

Today I train a newbie till 4 and then will be leaving work early for Antonio’s viewing. Thanks for all the support and advice on that! I haven’t wanted to talk about it much with anyone, but writing about it helps quite a bit. I am really nervous about seeing him but also glad to have the chance to say goodbye. 

I did my workout today, but instead of doing a double day this week I’m opting to do Speed 2.0 on Sunday instead. Since I get up at the buttcrack of dawn tomorrow to bungee jump, I won’t be doing it tomorrow, but I like doing one on the weekend to still feel on track, so Sunday it is. 

GUYS.

Remember when I told you that I meant to leave a note and a gift card randomly on a car that was decorated for a soldier coming home from Afghanistan but I ended up running into the owner of the car and she let me cry to her for forever?

She found me and added me on Facebook and I was just looking through her page and saw that she posted a picture of the notes I wrote and all her friends wrote all this nice shit about how we need more random acts of kindness in the world. 

I was in tears. AGAIN. Apparently I’m just meant to cry over everything this lady does, but it was just so nice. 

AGAIN.

PLEASE HELP. You guys, just a couple of days ago my good friend Tiffany lost her father to his battle with cancer. Tiffany is the one I’ve told MANY of you about—she’s a Beachbody coach, and dedicated to helping people better their lives. 

Tiffany has held down multiple jobs, school, and taking care of her father over the past couple of years. And she’s never once given up on asking me and so many other people how we’re doing in our weight-loss journeys. She hit 175 lbs and lost over 40 on her own, through healthy eating and regular exercise, and she genuinely loves helping others meet their goals.

Every time I get a message from Tiffany, I’m touched. Touched that even with her father dying, she went out of her way to ask me how I’M doing. Touched that she would try so hard for someone else even while her own world was crumbling. 

Tiffany is an amazing, hard-working, loyal, caring, and intelligent person, and her father is one of the people who helped to mold her into what she is today, If you could give even a DOLLAR towards this, it would help. 

I try to think of how I would feel if one of my parents passed away, and realize that in the grand scheme of things, a dollar isn’t shit. 

So please pass this through the fitblr community, and help this girl and her family give her father the send-off he deserves. 

THANK YOU.

Today was a nice day. I did my workout and spent some time with my parents, met up with James for lunch, then came home and hung out with Laura and our animals; she brought her dog, Sassy, along. Cupid did better with Sassy than I thought he would&#8212;he&#8217;s the epitome of a scaredy cat, so I thought he&#8217;d poop his nonexistent pants when he came in contact with his first dog ever, but he did pretty well! For the new followers, I&#8217;m on the left in the pictures, and my lovebug Laura is on the right. 
Laura and I decided to have some vodka [my arch nemesis, but everyone once in awhile I&#8217;m down for it] and then walk over to the college across the street because there are some super cute flowers [um, weeds] springing up over there. We, along with Sassy, hung out in the field for a while and just enjoyed the general prettiness of the day.
Tomorrow is a double workout day so I&#8217;m going to be putting in a LOT of work in the morning&#8212;it&#8217;s two really rough workouts, but they&#8217;re also two of my favorites, to be honest. They both make me really bust my ass without feeling like I&#8217;m getting my ass handed to me in a bad way. I can keep up, but am thoroughly worked by the end of them. I&#8217;m actually kind of excited for it. 
NOT excited to be going back to work tomorrow though! I love my job, but I love my &#8220;weekend&#8221; even more. Days off go by wayyyy too quickly! 

Today was a nice day. I did my workout and spent some time with my parents, met up with James for lunch, then came home and hung out with Laura and our animals; she brought her dog, Sassy, along. Cupid did better with Sassy than I thought he would—he’s the epitome of a scaredy cat, so I thought he’d poop his nonexistent pants when he came in contact with his first dog ever, but he did pretty well! For the new followers, I’m on the left in the pictures, and my lovebug Laura is on the right. 

Laura and I decided to have some vodka [my arch nemesis, but everyone once in awhile I’m down for it] and then walk over to the college across the street because there are some super cute flowers [um, weeds] springing up over there. We, along with Sassy, hung out in the field for a while and just enjoyed the general prettiness of the day.

Tomorrow is a double workout day so I’m going to be putting in a LOT of work in the morning—it’s two really rough workouts, but they’re also two of my favorites, to be honest. They both make me really bust my ass without feeling like I’m getting my ass handed to me in a bad way. I can keep up, but am thoroughly worked by the end of them. I’m actually kind of excited for it. 

NOT excited to be going back to work tomorrow though! I love my job, but I love my “weekend” even more. Days off go by wayyyy too quickly! 

This might end badly.

One of my friends and I said we’d get together for a walk today. Of course, when we finally both have time for that, Northern California decided to finally get some rain (we’ve been drought-status for a while now, and even though the sun is pretty and all, we need some rain over here). So that’s good, but we decided to shift our walk to the mall instead.

*LEAVES WALLET AT HOME AGAIN SO I DONT BUY SHIT I DONT NEED*

I don’t want to buy new clothes when I’m rapidly losing weight and inches! I’d rather wait till I’m where I want to be and go celebrate with some new-sized stuff :)

Good thing: I’m not worried about buying any food today. I don’t want anything that isn’t in today’s planned intake, and I’m glad I didn’t wake up with any cravings for once.

My day thus far

  • T25 had me DROWNING in sweat earlier. It was [suckbag] Total Body Circuit again; I do it 3 times this week :( But the sweat felt good; I actually enjoyed it. I really like this program, to be honest. I kinda sorta even love it. 
  • I’ve been lugging my gallon of water everywhere, which feels part ridiculous and part awesome. 
  • My brother made me lunch today, how cute is that? He made chicken breast with some veggies and I paired it with a little ghost pepper salsa to give it a kick. It was precious. 

A family friend came to visit, and she did the sweetest thing. She knows that the men in my family all have matching silver rings on them, so she brought a gold coin with an angel on it for my mom and I since she knows we’re both struggling with my brother being deployed overseas. She told us that she also gave one to my brother before he was sent out, and that he has it with him in Afghanistan now. My angel is named “Siren,” not sure why haha but I love my coin and the thought put behind it. I’ll be keeping it close. 

I’m having to remind myself multiple times a day that this weight loss thing is a long journey. Tomorrow it will be 1 month of REALLY buckling down for me. 1 month since I first popped in T25 so that means 1 month of working out 5 days a week without fail. And while that’s awesome and I’m definitely happy about it, it also means that there are still more months to go till I’m where I want to be and till my goals are accomplished.

So in conclusion, I need to chill the F out when I get all flustered about the fact that I’m not there yet, and just keep repeating to myself: It’s a long process. You’re already doing so great. Keep it up and it’ll happen for you. You’ll look back on this and laugh about the time when you were unfit and couldn’t even get through the warmups of the workouts and when walking up a flight of stairs was tough. Good job! 

It might take me longer than I wanted it to, I might have faltered along the way, I might have some bad days here and there, but

I WILL NEVER QUIT. 

Just took my Epsom salt bath!

First of all, can I just say that baths are kind of weird? I mean, is that just me? 

I got in and was like, Alright, I’m in. And I’m naked. Just layin’ here totally naked…just laying. Good times. 

I realized pretty quickly that I didn’t have a book or anything, so I just laid there. Naked. And thought about life and stuff. All naked. 

It was like in the Friends episode where Rachel walks around her apartment naked for the first time. But, uh, with water? I don’t know what I’m talking about I just don’t take baths very often, CLEARLY, alright?!

So anyway, at first I didn’t really get what the big deal was. I mean, it felt good, sure. But then when I got out I realized how relaxed and loose my body felt, and I’m pretty sure once I take another later in the week I’m going to be addicted pretty quickly to these things.

Oh I also did T25 right beforehand. Instead of doing Ab Intervals, though, I switched it out for Speed 1.0. I’ve never done that before and want to stick to the program as closely as possible, but I get a better workout from Speed 1.0 and since it’s the last week of Alpha I wanted to get as much out of it as possible. I don’t know if I’m just doing moves wrong with Ab Intervals but I wanted to amp it up a little, hence the Speed 1.0 video. 

That bath made me really relaxed. I don’t WANNA go to work now! 

My face and reaction whenever I see any of you getting mean comments. I WILL PUNCH YOU IN THE FACEEEEE. Also, I try to offset the mean-ness by sending you nice comments, but sometimes I miss my opportunity so I&#8217;m sorry for that.
I get really protective of you, guys, I can&#8217;t help it! 
This post has been inspired by rubyreed's bitchass anon commenter. Please see Liam above. Sorry she's too pretty for you. You can't sit with us.

My face and reaction whenever I see any of you getting mean comments. I WILL PUNCH YOU IN THE FACEEEEE. Also, I try to offset the mean-ness by sending you nice comments, but sometimes I miss my opportunity so I’m sorry for that.

I get really protective of you, guys, I can’t help it! 

This post has been inspired by rubyreed's bitchass anon commenter. Please see Liam above. Sorry she's too pretty for you. You can't sit with us.

This&#8217;ll be the LAST sappy post! &#8230;for tonight. Because tomorrow I wanna show you guys what this cute ass made me for Valentine&#8217;s Day. That guy just kills me.
We&#8217;ll also discuss my food intake today, because it was weird and kinda gross and stupid all at the same time. WTF, self. WTF.

This’ll be the LAST sappy post! …for tonight. Because tomorrow I wanna show you guys what this cute ass made me for Valentine’s Day. That guy just kills me.

We’ll also discuss my food intake today, because it was weird and kinda gross and stupid all at the same time. WTF, self. WTF.

My Valentine is Shaun T.

I do have an actual valentine, and his name is James. But I work until 8:30, so I won’t see him until later; and so, Shaun T became my day date. 

Today was Speed 1.0 and Ab Intervals. I know I’ve said it a million times, but I love Speed 1.0 long time—but Ab Intervals, meh not so much. I feel like I don’t have good form for some of the moves and I just don’t care for the workout as much, but whatever. I did it. I started with that one, then moved onto Speed 1.0, and I think that was a good order to do them in. 

I have tomorrow and Sunday off from the videos, and I just realized this—

Week four is done.

I’m about to start week five.

That means the first half of the program will be done.

That means that for one month, I’ve worked out 5 days a week and eaten mostly clean. I also haven’t binged.

Holy shit. 

It’ll be very surreal to get through the first half. The time is just flying. I will be so excited to be finished, though; so happy with myself for completing the entire thing. 

I have a close friend who is also doing T25 and we plan on getting the NAILED IT! shirts and taking pictures in them for a dorky little photoshoot =] 

I need to sit down this weekend, though, and map out a plan for my nutrition, water intake, and extra exercise. I was supposed to do that last week and didn’t. I also don’t feel like I gave the exercises 100% this week and I feel a difference. On Monday I will focus completely and start a whole new level; this program really motivates me to step things up and I love that!