i had a “moment” while driving last night. i know what i want for my next tattoo, and it’s a quote about changes that i learned last year while i was going through some bad times. i don’t want to write about it yet, because i want to wait till after i get it to go into detail, but i do want to say that last night i realized that i don’t feel comfortable tattooing something onto my body permanently that i’m not actually living by. i need to make the right changes and be able to say that yes, this quote does entirely apply to me as a whole. not be a hypocrite and have something on my body that i don’t even follow.
this moment of clarity put me in a good mood for the rest of the night. well, so did laughing with my family and cuddling with my boyfriend, but i was just in a really good mindset. i woke up at 6 this morning, went home and did lots of stomach exercises with my medicine ball, which luckily did not upset my torn tendon whatsoever—nsv? =] i was careful not to move my arm in any weird way, but i was still happy to be holding something fairly heavy and not be feeling and pain. i stopped counting after 50 crunches, but i did variations of sit ups and crunches with the ball in my hands and felt the burn every time i sat up—and it felt awesome.
i ate some homemade granola with raisins for breakfast and had some water and then headed out for a run. this one didn’t feel so good during—for some reason i felt sluggish in the beginning, and im going to blame my period—so i did walk some, but i made sure to power walk when i did and tehn i turned it into power walking for a minute, then jogging for a minute, and alternating that way, so i still felt productive. i also forced myself to sprint up the hills again and thought to myself, this is hard, but it’s certainly do-able. it’s not impossible so i don’t know why i ever thought it was. i came home and took a shower and headed to work, and i feel good.
i packed up some strawberries and carrots for snacks. on fridays, my work provides free bagels, donuts and muffins. i steered clear of those because i tend to go overboard on them [i fucking love bagels 4EVER and put like 10 lbs of cream cheese on them] and instead grabbed a banana and got some hot water for the superfruit/green tea i brought with me from home.
eat well and treat your body right and you feel good. it’s as simple as that.