I've been tiny and toned, I've been pretty pudgy, and I've been referred to as just plain FAT more than once. Now, I'm just trying to be healthy, and return to my roots as someone who was once active and adventurous. The body that will come with the clean eating and exercise will be the bonus!
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First I want to touch on what’s happening in Boston because it’s obviously terrible and obviously important. I think that, because of this community, I’m extra sad for another reason on top of all the other millions of reasons to be sad for everyone there—because of so many of my followers, I know how important running can be to people. I know that for some of you, it’s your life, your motivation or your way to get through the day. And for some of these runners who were so dedicated to train for weeks or months or years for that marathon to have their legs blown off, or to witness all of that and be traumatized, and to not be able to run again…that just makes all of that extra depressing to me. It’s sad that such a positive and massive event has been tainted the way it has; I feel sad and scared for everyone in Boston right now and for those who have loved ones out there. But seeing the stories of people helping each other is very touching.
Way less important stuff: I ate and did everything I posted earlier, minus the cucumbers; I just wasn’t feeling it. Everything else was according to plan though!
I’m currently not at my heaviest weight, nor am I at my lowest—I’m somewhere in between. Not quite fat, but certainly not thin. Instead of getting frustrated by my body, I think I’ll list a few things I enjoy about the weight I’m at this very second:
I’m extra curvy.I’ve got a pear-shaped body no matter what, but right now, my curves are out in full-force, and I like that.
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been. I’m barely into the Insanity program and I’m already able to endure more than before; my body isn’t quitting as easily.
I’m soft. While the ultimate goal is to have a hard stomach and all toned everything, for now, I’ll enjoy the softness of my stomach and my thighs, and know that my boyfriend does too—just a perk.
when i lived in ireland, one of my best friends and i decided that every morning at 6am we would wake up and jog. we’d meet at the halfway point between our houses, because we lived right up the street from each other, go run, and then head to school.
we told my mom this plan in excitement because we thought we were SO cool and fit. she paused for a second and then burst into laughter, which pissed us both off. she said we would NEVER do that in a million years.
determined to prove her wrong, i woke up at 5:55am the next day and called my friend. she answered and told me she was going back to sleep.
the day after that, she called me, and i told her i wasn’t getting up.
just got through my entire period without eating crap! boyfriend and i have been sticking to a meal plan of a shake for breakfast or lunch, 2 snacks throughout the day, and dinner together, and it’s working out very well. we also decided to hit the gym/do a workout one day, then alternate the next by going for a 30 minute walk [minimum] to give our bodies a rest but still get in some exercise. he’s trying to put on weight and gain a ton of muscle and i’m obviously trying to take a significant amount off, so we’ve got different goals, but what we have in common is that we both want to feel better by eating right and exercising.
last night we swam. the pool was cold at first—it’s heated, but last night was freezing ass here so the pool was not nearly heated enough—and im usually a big baby about that, but i forced myself into it. i always forget how much i love being in the pool until i get back in there and splash around!
we’ll probably do the gym tonight, im not sure. but i’m enjoying this. living away from home is already making a big impact on my body. i feel less bloated, more energetic, and just better all-around without all the junk food surrounding me to nibble on. im drinking tons of water and fun new things like chocolate soy milk and eating everything organically. i know i’m going to reach my goal of looking and feeling good on my birthday—august 2nd—which is when i think i’ll go ahead and really record down my progress, post pics for you guys to see the changes, and maybe even weigh myself.
right now im not so interested in the scale. im just interested in burning fat and feeling good, and it feels like im headed in the right direction.
this is the latest i’ve been up in a really long time. i don’t even think i was up this late on new year’s eve—fuck you, full-time job, for making me tired and lame all the time! i used to be such a night-owl and now i’m wiped out by 9pm! son of a…
anyway. i’m mostly up because i randomly started watching a million episodes of glee, and i was GOING to go to sleep but then matt bomer popped up as darren criss’ brother and there is NOTHING wrong with that so i couldn’t turn off the TV. so here i am.
i’m partly up because tomorrow i move into my first apartment with my boyfriend and i feel WEIRD. and NERVOUS. and excited, of course, but also very scared. i’ve lived in this house for 10 years and ive obviously never lived with a guy before so i’m feeling a little freaked out. luckily, james is extremely sweet and understanding that this is new for me so he’s being awesome to put me at ease.
i didnt come here to ramble, though—i came to tell you guys that i feel like a whole new me will be emerging [jesus,THAT was cheesy sounding] for lots of reasons but also largely because i think this move will be so great for my health.
we live across from a lake and have an awesome gym in the apartment, and james and i have agreed to shop and eat clean. i am so excited to see what this move does to my body because i really believe its about to be epic.
breakfast: 1 cup fiber one cereal and fiber one bar after exercise
snack 1: chopped banana with almond butter [i get cravings for it so this will probably be one of my recurring snacks for a while]
this morning’s exercise—
10 minutes with the punching bag. i usually hit the bag with each arm 10 times then switch but today i upped it to 15-25 and then mixed it up. it felt good.
20 medicine ball lifts
5 runs up the stairs [15 steps]
my cat watched me during the stair runs like, “what is this weird bitch DOING?” oh sidenote, i went to the gym yesterday and it was PACKED so i said eff this shit and came home and did my own thing (what i posted yesterday) but i’m going to try again today so i’ll let you guys know what happens with that =]
one of my coworkers asked me how ive been feeling since i started the 10-day challenge and then said, “im not allowed to comment on how you look because thatd be inappropriate and HR would be on my ass so ill just ask you, how do you feel, do you think you see results?” and i laughed and said “yes, i definitely feel a difference. i have more energy and im pretty sure ive lost at least a couple of pounds” and he smiled and nodded.
ill just take that as a good thing. and i do hope others can see some kind of difference but even if they dont, i definitely do see the start of something really good. i really feel like im ACTUALLY doing this and really see myself getting to my goal sooner rather than later.
i have all the right tools to do well and get to where i want right now, and ive never had things going so in my favor when it comes to losing weight—my parents have finally bought healthier food, im moving out and will soon be surrounded by good stuff, ill be living in a complex with a great free gym AND fitness classes, and ill be living directly across from a lake that is 2 miles around. my boyfriend is also bent on getting back into shape—hes been out of commission due to an injured shoulder, and then he had surgery on it so hes disappointed by the muscle he’s lost in the meantime—and hes a really positive influence on me in lots of different ways, so i know that with the two of us sharing the common goal of getting toned up, its going to be such a good thing.
i am so so excited for this. and so glad i took part in this challenge; i feel like by taking a realistic approach and eating food and drinking drinks that i enjoy, i enabled myself to really get the first few pounds off and set myself in the right direction.
skateboarding, which i’m about to do righttt now. hopefully i don’t eat pavement tonight…last night went so well. it’s only my second night on the board so i’m going to miss holding my boyfriend’s hand.
i rolled out of bed, put on a sports bra and gym shoes and grabbed a plain bagel with cream cheese. i’m ready to run. then i texted a friend to see if she wants to go for a walk when she’s off work, because we always try to coordinate walks around the lake and it never works out. she said yes, so i’ll get in a walk and a run before noon and then move on to my stomach and legs. good start to monday!