Peace out, pudge!

Uhh I wrote a decently-sized update earlier and it apparently didn’t post. Don’t cockblock me, Tumblr, I’m just trying to love you! I’m going to try and remember everything I wrote:

• So I unknowingly over-did it with my cookie allowance on Thursday. I got new ones for my daily cookie intake that I’ve been doing, without realizing just how “bad” those new ones were. I went to plug them into my points for the day and realized they basically WERE my points for the day. On Friday I headed into work with the remainder of the cookies with a note on top that read, “FOR THE LOVE OF GOD KEEP THESE AWAY FROM ME,” put them on my friend’s desk, and that was the end of that. 
• Today I was on my feet ALL day. James and I got a lot done today; we got plants for the loft and some wood for the bar that we’re making in the living room. We were running around hardware stores all day long. It was good exercise.
• THEN one of my friends stopped by and we went for a long ass walk together since it’s nice out tonight and I was showing her the new place and new area. We talked a lot about my struggle with binging and my new Weight Watchers membership. It was nice to be doing something productive while discussing all that. 
• That’s all I can remember for now. 

Updates tomorrow; I work from 9am-6pm and will most likely be bored…sucks for youuuu because I’m about to blow up your dash!

Until tomorrow!

<3

I talked to James this morning about how I was feeling last night. I told him that I was sorry for taking things out on him and that I think I am depressed. He agreed and said he notices things, like the fact that I get straight into bed after work and that I’ve been neglecting important stuff that needs to be done. To his credit he has tried to talk about all this with me before but I always blew it off. So this time I listened and we’re on the same page.

I also shared with him more than I ever have about my eating issues. I was never fully forthcoming about my binging, which is unfair to us both because he genuinely does try to support me…so honesty is key. I told him about sneaking food around, hiding the bags…everything that I do related to binging. I think he finally understands how serious it is now, that it isn’t something that can be cured immediately. I’m glad I shared.

I told him that I believe I’m my own worst enemy and that I know what I need to do to be happy again, and he agreed to help in any way he can. 

So today we’re knocking out my to-do list together, so I can take care of everything I’ve been neglecting. Then we’re going for a walk, to get some sunshine and some exercise. 

I made us both smoothies for breakfast; I had a banana and a strawberry smoothie with whey protein, organic vanilla yogurt, and milk. It was good and I’m glad I started the day on a positive note. 

I didn’t drink as much water as I usually do yesterday, so today I’m kind of forcing myself to—even though I had the home-made orange juice with breakfast, I’m also going to have an entire water bottle right now, too, and carry one with me for the rest of the day so I stay on top of it. 

Despite it being cold as shit outside, I’m going to walk. My back is really limiting me from doing anything else; some days are better than others but the past 2 haven’t been good. So I’m going to bundle up and put on a million layers [HATEHATEHATE being cold] and head out to the lake or wherever my little feet take me and explore. I love being outside, I don’t do it often enough, and that’s kind of sad in itself. So might as well knock out two birds with one stone and get some exercise and some exploration in at one time. 

I have some cleaning to get done and then I’m heading to a co-workers party/get together…I have a feeling that this might be bit crazy so if you see a drunk post later don’t judge meeee.

Yesterday’s exercise came in the form of lots of walking. James and I went to downtown San Jose with his family to see the lights and rides at Christmas In The Park. I want to go ice skating but I’m not cleared by the chiropractor; more on that later :(

• food!

breakfast: organic granola w/organic yogurt and blackberries & 1 glass of green juice 

snack: roasted seaweed 

lunch: unsalted chips w/ghost pepper salsa, sandwich with organic bread & peanut butter

dinner: home made shrimp tacos 

dessert: frozen green grapes <3

• exercise! 

We’re on a “walk” but radley decided she’d rather lay down with this stick. To be fair, she doesnt know her mama is using her as an excuse to get more exercise!

i’ve got a groupon for 10 kickboxing classes that needs to be used ASAP; it expires in october. looks like i’m about to get my ass beat again, and probably like it—i’ve always loved kickboxing. 

i’m not sure what i’d like to do for today’s exercise but i’ve got a couple of interesting options so i’ll land on one soon!

today i will:

• run/walk on the sand! 
• frolic in the water, even though it’ll be freezing!

and most importantly, not give a shit that my body isn’t necessarily ‘bikini ready’ but just enjoy the fact that i’m healthy and have access to a nice beach and will get to spend time with my love: http://uplusmeequalsus.tumblr.com/ if you’d like to stalk her ass.

1. my ankle is swollen from a bite. it is repulsive.
2. i still have a cold lingering. go die.
3. i have a full-blown ear infection in my left ear
4. i am clearly on my period and whining about everything 
5. i have a 5k tomorrow

even though i dont feel so great, and my body is basically one nasty thing away from falling apart, i am happy to be starting september by doing something active and fun.

and even though i’m shocked that it’s already about to be september, i can honestly say i love 2012 and it’s hands down the best year of my life; a nice turn-around from 2011, which was undoubtedly the WORST. 

i made a promise to myself that last night i would see 115-120 on the scale by the end of 2012. while my journey isn’t necessarily about a specific number, i remember being very happy at 120. and i said last year, on this blog, that i would reach my goal in 2012 and there is still time for that to happen. i’m eating right, i’m exercising, and i’m feeling good; this can and will happen. i’m making it happen. i am excited.

SO SWEATY. YES I AM GOING TO TALK ABOUT HOW SWEATY I AM IN EVERY POST SO GET USED TO ITTTT.

alright, i did it. day 6 is down. i’m excited to hit tomorrow and have an official week of  insanity under my belt. but i’m even more excited to hit my 2 week mark and take some progress pictures and re-do my fit test. 

in regards to fitblr-ness, today was a good one—clean eating, lots of walking, and 40 minutes of hardcore cardio DONE. i’ll try to repeat tomorrow! 

excuse me while i go shower. i.am.nasty.

today will consist of lots of errands, but some of them are fun/interesting: 

i can’t decide between wanting to be two-face or poison ivy for my birthday comic book pub crawl, so i’ll be searching for an outfit for either of those today. 

i’ll be gathering the last of the materials for the paint battle that’ll take place the day after the comic book crawl. 

and i’ll be going on long walks with the puppy, taking a quick swim and completing an online workout video. amongst many other [boring] things.

today’s main goals: to drink more water than i normally do, and to make myself sweat.

alright im back haha.

one of my coworkers asked me how ive been feeling since i started the 10-day challenge and then said, “im not allowed to comment on how you look because thatd be inappropriate and HR would be on my ass so ill just ask you, how do you feel, do you think you see results?” and i laughed and said “yes, i definitely feel a difference. i have more energy and im pretty sure ive lost at least a couple of pounds” and he smiled and nodded.

ill just take that as a good thing. and i do hope others can see some kind of difference but even if they dont, i definitely do see the start of something really good. i really feel like im ACTUALLY doing this and really see myself getting to my goal sooner rather than later.

i have all the right tools to do well and get to where i want right now, and ive never had things going so in my favor when it comes to losing weight—my parents have finally bought healthier food, im moving out and will soon be surrounded by good stuff, ill be living in a complex with a great free gym AND fitness classes, and ill be living directly across from a lake that is 2 miles around. my boyfriend is also bent on getting back into shape—hes been out of commission due to an injured shoulder, and then he had surgery on it so hes disappointed by the muscle he’s lost in the meantime—and hes a really positive influence on me in lots of different ways, so i know that with the two of us sharing the common goal of getting toned up, its going to be such a good thing.

i am so so excited for this. and so glad i took part in this challenge; i feel like by taking a realistic approach and eating food and drinking drinks that i enjoy, i enabled myself to really get the first few pounds off and set myself in the right direction.

• still fully sticking to my meal plan. WOOT.
• i am currently having a stare-down with peanut butter m&m’s. and by “peanut butter m&ms” i mean THE BEST KIND OUT THERE. someone keeps refilling them in the break room at my work. im mugging them. little bitches will NOT go in my mouth! i am determined!
• walked for 42 minutes today; i turned on my pedometer before laura and i walked around the mall. we did the full circle, so i got in a good mile. checked out a few stores but didnt see anything really decent, although i did grab something for my mama because im just a nice girl, what can i say.

i am ready to go home and exercise! quit ruining my plans, JOB. also, i got something on sunday i want to share with you guys but ill do so when i have a picture…sooo tomorrow =]

haha…quicky. i’m telling you, i’m like a 14 year old boy. 

today’s exercise: 

• 1 hour walking
• 10 mins hooping
• 30 squats
• 60 crunches w/medicine ball 
• skateboarding! i still suck so no new updates =[

i messed up though, guys, and drank beer last night. boyfriend and i split a banana bread beer, has anyone had that? it literally tastes like banana bread, it’s WEIRD. we also had double chocolate stout. oops. fail. 

tomorrow i’ll be in san francisco for a friend’s birthday having mimosas, and then am going to an oscar party at another friend’s house; she has it every year and it’s always super fun. tonight i’ll be doing dinner at my friend amanda’s; she’s a culinary student and makes epic food so i’m prettyyyy excited to eat whatever we’re having. 

oh ps—i got mockingjay. NEEDTOREAD. i loved catching fire, maybe even more than the first book even. totally shouldve read these books before!

i’m so excited, it’s official! i have my plane ticket and the reservation has been made for saturday, march 10th. the first time i heard about the ‘secret place’ at disneyland i wanted to go to it, obviously, but never thought i’d have the chance to. now i’m 25 and going and feel like i’m 12 i’m so thrilled about it. seriously cant wait.

it’s buffet-style so i will eat EVERYTHING IN THERE and NOT regret it. and then i’ll go walk it all off in disneyland. but seriously, going to eat EVERYTHING.